Dear future girlfriend
I’ve been thinking about you a lot recently. I’ve been thinking about us and the memories we’re going to make together.
I’ve been thinking about the trips I’m going to take you on. Just the two of us together, in our car, travelling. We will make a romantic playlist of our favourite songs. You will help me pack, and we will both be prepared with everything we need, but it turns out it’s not a lot, just you and me.
I will drive. It reminds me of being a young boy and travelling overnight to catch a ferry with my dad. He let me sit in the front, and I took in every single detail. The bends of the roads, the mountains all around us. The endless Christmas trees and the rustling of the wind. Every stream, every river, every Loch. The bunnies crossing the road. The squirrels. The pheasants. The sheep. Even the odd deer. That trip felt special. I was safe, I was warm, I was secure.
I want that for you. I want you to feel how I felt, so tiny and insignificant against the scenery all around us, but yet we hold this precious piece of time. This journey symbolic of our lives together.
I will rest my hand on your knee so you know I’m there, here with you. Present in every sense of the word. That look that you give me. That smile that needs no words. It just says that you love me. It says you feel safe, happy, content. That you feel it too.
You feed me sweets, unwrapping them lovingly and placing them in my mouth. Touching my shoulders. Admiring my look of concentration as I scan every meander of the surface in front of us to keep you safe and comfortable.
I like how when we stop, it’s just you and I under the stars. The only light from our own car and the reflection of the stars. Holding each other. Feeding each other. Kissing each other. There’s nowhere else I’d want to be, and with nobody else would, I want to share this intimate moment.
Our little trips bring out the best in each other. I see you at your most feminine, and you bring out the protector and provider in me. We complete each other. The final missing piece of each other’s hearts.
And when we get to our destination. A log cabin in the middle of nowhere, enough to keep the cold from the door. I dream of you giving yourself to me. Your heart, your mind, your body, and your soul. I want you whole. I want you to feel my insatiable desire for you with the glint in my twinkling eyes. I want you to embrace it. Feel every flutter, every heartbeat, as we caress each others bodies. Uniting as one.
I want to smudge your lipstick with my thumb. I want to taste you with my lips. I want to see your breath as I undress you with my eyes and I want to make your heart pound with anticipation of every touch as I claim your body. I want to tease and excite you. To please and delight you as I make you feel like a woman again.
Dear future girlfriend. I know you’re out there. I will wait for you, but when I feel those embers ignite my heart, I will make us happen. Somewhere, you’re looking up at the same stars thinking about me. Yearning for us to be together. I promise you this and so much more.
Your future boyfriend.
Your Jon
